Banana, coffee, Forever21.com and a yummy tasting micro-lozenge.

Going to put my socks on and workout soon — finals have not been good on my regimen.

But I bought yogurt for the first time in a month yesterday (I had to stop eating it because dairy was really fucking me up) so I’m excited for that …

Yeah. Let me stop procrastinating and go burn some calorias. 

When I don’t eat for a while, my mood gets so … dark.

I see the tendrils of those days, except much worse. When I was restricting (when it got really bad), I was euphoric. Now, when I don’t find the time to eat for a couple of hours I want to crawl into a dark corner and not talk to anyone ever.

This is a huge issue when my job is to be bubbly and social. Need to plan out small, portable meals I guess …

I don’t have much time to work out anymore …

I don’t have much time to eat either.

Sigh … this semester needs to end so I can readjust my priorities: 1. Get tiny and healthy 2. Everything else

I’m thinking of getting my belly button pierced. 

I think belly piercings are a hit or miss, but I want something to push me forward and motivate me, and I want to stop being so embarrassed about showing my stomach. I mean, I love my stomach. I walk around naked all the time, but once someone else is in the equation I cover up like a snow tubing nun.

And maybe I’ll like it once it’s in there —

Whatever! I’m getting it! I just have to google and make sure it wont interfere with working out, because … that would defeat the whole fucking purpose.

If you have a belly piercing, let me know how long you had to wait before it was comfortable to work out again or how long it took to heal in general!

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Going to get le hair done, then maybe hang out with a friend. I really want to watch the Hunger Games, so maybe that’ll happen (s’about fucking time!).

I had some yogurt for breakfast and am taking some almonds just incase I get hungry and decide I want fatty drenched fast food. No thanks.

My ovaries also hurt. Hey flow, how’ve you been? Bitch.

Spring Break starts tomorrow at 3:45. I won’t be able to work out tomorrow I don’t think, but guess what I’m doing on Friday and Saturday and Sunday and Monday and Tuesday and lather rinse repeat until school starts again on the 16th?

this bitch.

Time to get serious again. According to my countdown, there are 58 days ‘til summer. I have no anxiety from midterms, no excuses. 

I just need to fucking sweat it out. 

grilled cheese grapes green tea 

workout

study

i want to find exercises for my calves. i guess i’ll add that to the list.

green cheese grapes green tea

workout

calf pumpers*

study

Stepping into eating unprocessed foods is a bit hard, but once youre in — it is sooooooo good.

I was sweating like a beast. Sucks for my just straightened hair, but whateverrrrrrr.

• Workout Saturday and Sunday
• BUY FRUIT
• CONSUME FRUIT/ RAW FOODS

That is all.

womp.

I’m buying lots of fruit tomorrow.

Going to try and do breakfast and lunch raw all weekend with mandatory workouts.

My skin is beginning to look dull. I feel lethargic — yeah, things have got to change.

I want:

• apples
• grapes
• clementines
• pears
• baby carrots (not a fruit but can’t forget to buy them) 

they were on tour for the VS Very Sexy Collection.

Uhm, if seeing my two favorite Victoria Secret Models doesn’t inspire the shit out of me, I don’t know what will.

They were so beautiful. I was really nervous to meet Candice especially, because I ADORE her. I said “Hiiiiiiii” like a prepubescent fan girl.

But it was amazing.

I should probably get to sleep if I want to work out in the morning.

I also feel like I need to ingest a fruit at some point.

I’m working out, but my eating is not where I want it to be.

Edit and redo.

Time to change that.

• workout
• international relations notes

That’s all I’m going to put on myself today. Tomorrow,

• workout
• social psych notes
• international relations mini-study session

Those two exams are what my immediate life are going to revolve around.

Womp.

Yesterday, my mom bought pizza but I got home so hungry so I had two fiber bars. Today I feel very, jiggly. I know it’s in my mind (or maybe it isn’t who knows) but I’m going to Zumba for an hour, hoop a bit and hopefully have something clean for dinner today.

Did 30 minutes of Zumba Ripped and 20 minutes of Zumba Rush this morning.

I kept repeating, ‘God, this feels fucking good.’

Had there been strangerly ears without context, they would have.thought I was having the best fuck of my life.

How mistaken they would have been. But it was a great workout.